My Hunger to Learn is growing....having hunger pains!

I am so completely happy to have found the Edit Me Challenge....I have all of the right equipment, PSE and LR, a nifty Nikon D90 camera...just lacking the knowledge of what to do with all of it. My passion is photography and I enjoy sharing it with others and reading/ hearing what others have to say about my work and seeing how they come up with their final products. This is what makes me unbelievably happy and every time I learn something or see something new...I somehow have to immediately apply ot to my everyday life and photos. I looked at my blog today (which is fairly new, yes Ive had it since last Dec but I haven't done much with it until last week..) and noticed that I dont have ANY of my recent photos up, I definitely have my work cut out for me tonight..Good Night Fellow bloggers=)

Cherry Cokes With Crushed Ice: Edit Me Challenge #2 2012

Cherry Cokes With Crushed Ice: Edit Me Challenge #2 2012: This week's photo was of a sweet little bundle of joy, submitted by Tara of Wild Ginger Photography! Here is my edit below: I used PSE...

Edit Me Challenge #2 2012

This week's photo was of a sweet little bundle of joy, submitted by Tara of Wild Ginger Photography! Here is my edit below:

I used PSE 9, cropped it down a bit, used the cloning tool to remove the window, adjusted the lighting and contrast, used the fibers filter and adjusted the opacity to reveal the sweet boy then erased the fibers ontop of him, applyed Florabella's Pollyanna and adjusted the opacity, sharpened and defogged, finally I applied florabellas vanity and adjusted the opacity, gave the picture an antique feel. WAAHLA!

Cheers to the NEW YEAR...

Hellooo out there...! Just got done reviewing all of my previous blogs from 2011, I almost deleted them becasue they were so depressing BUT I've decided to keep them posted. For the simple fact that this is my blog for a reason, its my journal, per say. Its here for me to vent and for me to reflect on when I'm having a great day or even a bad one. It helps me put things into perspective and to reailze how much my outlook on life has changed, I was in such a dark place in 2011, only makes me look for a much brighter one in 2012. If you read my blog from New years 2011, I didn't make a specific ny resolution, which may have been the beginning of my problems for that year, so I am FOR SURE making one this year and it shall be: That I will lose 20 lbs before April. YES, I am going to do it, I read one of my blogs where it said I just want to sleep and eat and enjoy the time off I had from work..WELL lets just say that I enjoyed it a little too much and gained 17 lbs...PUKE. I am hoping the best gfor myselg this new year, I am going to enjoy like to the fullest ad not be such a Debbie Downer, those are never fun to be around. Time to stop complaining and start changing.

Where did I go?

I'm feeling a bit lost. I've lost that person I used to be! I used to be energetic, charasmatic, motivated, extremely confident, and wouldn't let ANYTHING get in my way of acheiving anything! At first I blamed it on getting older, now I'm just blaming it on how I've chosen to live my life. If you would have read my myspace 'about me' section (back when myspace was the 'it' thing) you would have wanted to be my friend..lol. Now, I'm just a lost individual struggling to find that 'thing' again and the only reason you would want to be my friend is becasue I take good pictures. I'm attempting to start a photography business, which I've found is one of the only things that make me happy. But lately that doesn't even seem to cut it. I used to be independant...now I'm relying on a man whom I love with all of my heart but I don't think he's up for the part of being a 'provider'. He's a father to my son and a wonderful boyfriend..at times...but thats still not enough for me. ARe my expectations just too high? I dont know. I just wish I knew..something.

Just WHAT am I doing?

I really have no idea. The only thing i DO know, is that I LOVE my son and i am a good mother and I will someday soon be doing what I love to do, take pictures. thats it. is that too much to ask? Why is it so hard to find that happy medium between myself and.....myself. I feel right now that I'm just 'here'...yep...Im just here.

Im not where I thought i would be at 27. But what fun is it to be where you thought you would be? Im over having fun. Im ready to be serious. I want a career, a want to be married, I want another baby...is that too mych to ask? Or is it just too much when the other wants exactly the opposite? My boyfriend wants just that, the opposite, we arent on the same page at this very moment..and at one time i thoight we always would be. relationships aer hard....thats why i NEVEr liked them. I was a single, independant gal who loved herself, knew herself, and wanted to only be WITh her self....slamming the door in any potential man's face.Until one day i didnt, and now Im wondering if I should be the same way. If only someone would write out directions to my life and mail them to me i would be forever grateful!

I missed this picture! It was taken around 2007 I believe and I just came across it while cleaning up my computer. This is Sara, she has been a dear friend of mine for over 10 years! That is a long time to keep a friendship going. Of course, life has taken us in different directions at times but we have always kept in touch. Actually, I believe that is the most beautiful thing about a sacred friendship and gives it more meaning. When we finally have the chance to speak we have so much to inform each other about. She just had her third child and I am heading over to her house tomorrow to take some baby pictures. Maybe this will get my baby fever out of the way. At the end of the day, this girl is one of my dearest friends and I am so happy she came into my life when she did, when I needed a friend the most.