And Baby Makes 3=)

Yes it's sooo true...I'm having a lil babe<3 Something I've wanted for SO long now, of course this is MY life so things don't always fall the way they are supposed to, in the conventional world. I got pregnant once again out of wed lock..OH NO, stone me now! Honestly, I'm not proud of it, my plans were to meet a wonderful man, get married, wait a few months and get pregnant since I'm going to be turecspening 30 in about a year and my clock was a'tickin. BUT, God had other plans for me. I was dating a man for a bout 5 years, a good man to Ayvin, somewhat like a stepfather, he WAS going to be his actual stepfather, but we went our seperate ways, a few times actually. We kept coming back to each other, thinking that this time would be different, that we would 'get along' maybe? We finally called it quits, I met a man...had one crazy night with him, began dating and bam...one month later I find out I'm having his baby. To my surprise, he didn't run or tell me to get out of his sight (that came later..lol) He was supportive, said we will get through this, took it better than myself! Then the ex had to let us know shew as there and she began saying things to him to sway him. Of course, it worked and he went through a phase of not wanting anything to do with me. I let it be. I let him go and figure it out on his own. Of course a week later, he let me know he wasn;t going anywhere and yes they were back to gether but if she couldn't handle this, she wasn't going to be around. We knew then she wouldn't be able to. What woman could? Ecspecially one who only came to him out of spite? SHe didnt care for him. nor did she wanna be with him but she sure as hell didn't want anyone else having his baby..long story short...we're having a girl and were SOOOO happy.....about the fact that were having a girl, not together. WE have chosen to build a friendship (since we skipped that part..lol) and then later down the road..maybeeee marraige. Yes I care for him, but we still have alot of work to do. He's unbelievably supportive...and I can tell he's really diggin' my pregnant look...;) Since this is all NEW to me again, after 9 years of NOT having babies, and i'm older now, I'm soaking everything in, I want to start writing to my daughter (Delaney Ruth...)about all of this that I'v went through, jsut for her. I love her. I guess if I didn't do things backwards I wouldn't do them at all. =)