Background of Me

Hello bloggers and friends!  I have decided to keep this blog as an update for anyone who is interested in learning and knowing that I am struggling and doing just fine at it. Is it NOT normal to struggle? Hmm...I can say that it is unless you show me one single person on this crazy earth who is not struggling emotionally, physically, or even, oh my!, financially! To sum up my life before this blog, to the ones who have never met me, I got my high school education at Lewis Cass High School and graduated in 2002 with a basic diploma. (yea I'm pretty much Basic),,Then went on to enter a community college while just randomly picking a degree which I "thought" was the one for me,  but of course every 18 year old 'thinks' alot of the wrong things are good for them. So I condemn any parent who throws their child into the swarm of hands at a community college their first year out of high school, its just cruel I tell you! I am going to give Ayvin the option of going right in or waiting until he learns this world of ours is a tough one and realizes what he was put on this earth to do, then he may go into college not wasting any money or time...which it will be my money, I can promise that! ( I have well rounded parents but they never went to college therefore they could not instill these thoughts into me while growing up.) I entered in the Early Childhood Education program, wow! I dn't know what I was thinking, but I think I was thinking that I loved children or something...lol. After the observations I had to complete and the pregnancy that came creeping along, I quickly found out that was NOT that case, children are not for me, except for my own of course! Does anyone else think that also? I mean, how crazy is it to love your own child so much, but to despise the next door neighbor's annoying little kids? So I changed my major to Medical Assisting. I can handle blood and making a difference in ones life per day. I love paper work and tasks that make me use my mind. I thought " ok this will work, this profession is just for me"....little did I knowthey make jack crap! But the money isn't all of it,....(hehe, yes it is when you are a single parent trying to make it up in this world)....All in all, I chose that program and was not changing it again. While attending college for 7 years, I learned alot about people and the medical field. I met alot of different personalities, learning alot of different perspectives, and make alot of crazy decisions. These past 7 years have been the bestyears of my life, so I think. I'm sure there are still some to come. I graduated with my Associated in May of 2010. I technically graduated in December, but of course the family members didn't congratulate me until they saw me acutaly walk the stage and be hanged a diploma, little to their knowledge, it had nothing in it. Heck, I didnt even have to go, they mailed it to me. But since I'm such a peeople please, thought they would like to see their daughter, granddaughter, one day daughter-in-law, walk on a stage to be handed a blank portfolio looking thing. It actually was one of the best days of my life. I can't lie.
So, now I am living at my boyfriend/ soon to be hopefully one day "fiance"s house with my Ayvin, working at Red Lobster. YEP,  am a server. Not an MA. Still looking and looking and looking. I enjoy looking for a job, but when it comes down to it, I just wish I could skip the interviews and have them just hire me. lol In the end, I will have a stable job, making stable money, marry my boyfriend, and life happily ever after, getting there is the difficult part, just because it takes effort. I have learned this year, 2010, that ambition is everything, and God does pave a road for us. But he also gives us minds, to think with and to make the best decisions possible for that given time. So when something doesn't go My way, I don't blame anyone but myself and I have done that up until now. Due to recent unfortunate events, I have learned many lessons, do not take ANYTHING for granted becasue once its gone, it can be gone forever, unless you accept responsiblity and realize, you cannot change anything once its done. You can only work on making it better and work on making your faults into something positive.