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Im ready for things to look up. Im ready for my life to become happy. I know life is what you make it which only makes me feel that much more of a loser. Ive made it this way. I rely on unreliable things which in turn make me depressed. Thats what I am, depressed. I need to find a good doctor. I always thought I could manage things with exercise or partying Where are the parties??! and where is the energy to exercise? maybe I should try one of those miracle 5 hour energies.If I could overcome these withdrawls from my used to be happy, content nature, Im sure i could accomplish more. Motivation, please come find me.