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Thursday, January 20, 2011

taking it all too seriously

I worry. Alot. Ecspecially lately. It seems that I've been completely consumed with crappy little nerves that make my stomach hurt, I think its called "worry" "or "the constant thinking of all the stress in ones life and trying to come up with ideas to make it all go away..".... So tonight I was cooking turkey bacon, once agan, for my 7 yr old and I thought "what is the use of all this worrying, no one else is making it half as big a deal as I am.." I avoid phone calls (alot, I like to text for some odd, society driven reason), constantly thinking about "what if"...and its starting to get to me. I believe if I just have different outlooks on things, it wil change the entire vibe of the whole situation and it wont cause me anxiety. I went through too much turmoil for the 2 months daniel and I were seperated, I think if I can survive that...I can take on anything, emotionally. Financially, thats a different story, I also rememeber the phrase "whats the worst thing that can happen?" they tell me that I breached the contract becuase I allowed a family to take over my lease so i could move back in with my boyfriend/ soon to be finace'.? What? lol.No, that will not happen..life is way too short to fret on the small stuff and its crazy that I'm 26 and am just now truly  understanding that concept, a title of a book I got for my high school graduation. 'Don't sweat the small stuff'..I'm sure I sitll have that book around here somewhere. Should have read it I suppose.

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