I really have no idea. The only thing i DO know, is that I LOVE my son and i am a good mother and I will someday soon be doing what I love to do, take pictures. thats it. is that too much to ask? Why is it so hard to find that happy medium between myself and.....myself. I feel right now that I'm just 'here'...yep...Im just here.
Im not where I thought i would be at 27. But what fun is it to be where you thought you would be? Im over having fun. Im ready to be serious. I want a career, a want to be married, I want another baby...is that too mych to ask? Or is it just too much when the other wants exactly the opposite? My boyfriend wants just that, the opposite, we arent on the same page at this very moment..and at one time i thoight we always would be. relationships aer hard....thats why i NEVEr liked them. I was a single, independant gal who loved herself, knew herself, and wanted to only be WITh her self....slamming the door in any potential man's face.Until one day i didnt, and now Im wondering if I should be the same way. If only someone would write out directions to my life and mail them to me i would be forever grateful!
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