Where did I go?

I'm feeling a bit lost. I've lost that person I used to be! I used to be energetic, charasmatic, motivated, extremely confident, and wouldn't let ANYTHING get in my way of acheiving anything! At first I blamed it on getting older, now I'm just blaming it on how I've chosen to live my life. If you would have read my myspace 'about me' section (back when myspace was the 'it' thing) you would have wanted to be my friend..lol. Now, I'm just a lost individual struggling to find that 'thing' again and the only reason you would want to be my friend is becasue I take good pictures. I'm attempting to start a photography business, which I've found is one of the only things that make me happy. But lately that doesn't even seem to cut it. I used to be independant...now I'm relying on a man whom I love with all of my heart but I don't think he's up for the part of being a 'provider'. He's a father to my son and a wonderful boyfriend..at times...but thats still not enough for me. ARe my expectations just too high? I dont know. I just wish I knew..something.